God, it really sucks to be me.. and i really meant it. nobody would ever wanna live in my body, nobody, cos i can't even love it or the least bit... like it.

and obviously, i'm not being very happy enough about myself which in turn affects people around me not being happy with me cos i'm forever unhappy (or at least i thought so).

honestly, i really apologise for what i'm not and what i've been.

sorry that i can never be interesting enough..

sorry that i can never be hot enough or pretty enough...

sorry that i can't appreciate poker or any games you play...

sorry that i can't be happy with mostly everything you do...

sorry for always being sucha grumpy person..

sorry that i can never be the best you've ever have...

sorry that i'm so fucked up...

sorry that i can never give you the feeling that i'm happy...

sorry that i'm always making you feel lousy...

sorry that the things i wanna do doesn't always interest you....

sorry that my parents have to have someone as hateful as me..

sorry for being the worst gf you'll ever be with...

i'm so sorry for everything that i'm not, that you wish i was.... i don't know what else to say, but i am sure i make a better dead person than being alive. i wish i didn't even exist at all.. i hate being me.

but i am not sorry for really loving you.

if it makes you happier, i would...