i just wish....WIIIIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSHHHHHHH that my mind would stop torturing me.

if only IT uses that "torturing energy" to help me in my perseverance to run, but NO, it corrupts me with evilllll thoughts.

it doesn't help that i'm in my PMS mood now, it's making me feel worse than shit.. than the lowest-being on Mother Earth.

so sucky...

maybe i'm just tired, tired of everything.... tired of always thinking... tired of doing things i don't wanna do... tired of not being able to do what i wanna do... tired of just having to listen to other people's wants..

fuck it.